Caffeine

Oh Diet Coke How I Love Thee...

I need Caffeine and I need it now!

I have one of those headaches only a glass of ice cold Diet Coke can cure. Oh That wonderful combination of stress, anxiety, exhaustion, overwhelmed & on day 700 or so of feeling this way!

Love

This afternoon I opened the Autism Awareness update and this is what I read:

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

-1st Corinthians 13:4-7

I wonder how the Apostle Paul would feel about his words on facebook...

As a parent I love my child unconditionally. As an OCD parent, I remind myself not to freak out when there is cereal all over my backseat. As a woman, I would love to shop and do my hair and go out and have fun but as a mom I put my child first and decide to put her to bed myself and then watch a movie on the couch in my PJ's. As a parent I see the blessing that my child has given me. The joy of her laugh. I try to be ever patient, ever understanding and always willing to give my all for her. I am far from perfect.

Sometimes I have no idea why my child is freaking out! Sometimes I feel hopeless. I have a feeling it's never going to change. I feel like I'm in an endless rut. Day after Day.

So to give me some perspective I think of Paul's friend Timothy.

"I have fought the fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith."

2 Timothy 4:7

It may not be perfect but I have faith in those who are helping us. I have confidence in those who have been educated to provide the most for my child. I have hope for the future. And at the end of the day it may not be the fairy tale I once dreamt but I do have a

true love

Birthday Eve

Tonight is Maggie's 4th Birthday Eve!

4 years ago I was pregnant and waiting for my baby girl to arrive.

I knew she was going to be Maggie, probably interesting, beautiful possibly funny - She is my daughter after all -

but nothing really prepared me for the 'Maggie' God had in mind for Me

That's ok

I've learned I can be patient

I am creative in finding realistic answers

I am actually good at organizing a complicated schedule

I can't always do what I WANT to do but I can do what I NEED to do

I Love my baby girl

My Beautiful, Smart, Adorable, Kind, Passionate, Loving, Gentle, Unpredictable Maggie!!!

(mastering walking up and down stairs!!!! Time heals everything is the normal saying and for me, TIme creates development in tangible ways)